If only you knew…

Sentimental bliss and sadness… I found a certain CD.. came over a certain power point slide show.. heard a certain song.. saw certain pictures.. then comes a certain blast from the past and certain tears fall..

It’s surprising how fast time seems to fly these days.. it feels just like yesterday.. but in reality about 5 years or so have passed.. Almost 9 years since the beginning of the time that God decided to put me and my family through difficult and trying times, probably to test our faith in him and how strong our family bond would be… and to think at one point, such intensity of what I would think was the biggest (and i’m hoping the last) explosion in our family, we almost, just almost gave in.. It was like.. falling from like a million feet from up in the air.. and your parachutes not working… you fall.. completely terrified with you next encouter with the ground since you’re falling at like a million miles per hour or something… then at the very last second your parachute decides to stop playing around with you and actually open, slowing you down so you have a more welcoming encouter on land..

My gulaaayy.. since then… no more major explosions.. honestly, that one really rattled us… majorly… but by the grace of God, we all turned out alright in the end, and no doubtly strengthened our bond.. waaaiittt.. just remembered another explosion after that.. not as big.. but it was a turning point in my life.. in a way, it was kind of an after shock of the major explosion.. it did have its effect on me.. thus its outcome.. but then.. even though I wished those things never happened.. I accept them.. not saying that i’m glad they happened… but then like.. I don’t think I would be half the person i am now if they didn’t happen.. Expiriences like that can either make you or break you, it all depends on how you handle the situation and how much faith you have in yourself and in God that he’ll pull you through ok. And it soo totally doesn’t help if you bury yourself in self-pity for the rest of your days..

Times is now 1am.. and Mom just caught me.. haha! But I think I pretty much got out all I wanted to write for tonight.. Oohhh btw.. We’re picking up Daddy at the airport tomorrow! YAY! Reasons for his sudden arrival, that’s another story.. one I shall tell next time.. haha! Parting words.. Enjoy life, for you’ll never know how long it’ll all last.. God Bless! <3

Happy Valentines Day everyone! Best valentines i’ve had so far.. hahaha! Spent mostly all day at school with friends.. Updates updates.. hmm.. when was my last update? I update more on my xanga blog.. www.xanga.com/magicmilkyway37 mhmm… footnote version.. Our semi- musical play at school, St. Thomas Aquinas, the Man, is over.. haha yeaa… like last week of January.. fun! I was the temptress.. hehe!

JS Promenade is on the 16th… 2 days away.. I still need to buy footwear tomorrow… Oohh and today.. Valentines! Haha! Duuuudeee… a few roses and a couple of surprises at school.. effin` awesome man! Violin music, "I Love You" banners… A special unsuspected rendition of "Crazy For You"… Flowers.. Balloons.. Cards.. and lots of screaming! The hell with the corniness, it’s Valentine’s day!

I’d write more, but then i’m dead tired.. slept late last night and woke up early this morning.. sleeeeepppp… God Bless everyone! Don’t forget to pray!

<3milcah